Love, love, love this little boy. What do I love about him? besides the fact that he has my DNA and I grew him inside my tummy for nine months and got so big people thought I was having twins? HMMMMMMMMMMM, I think the combination of a good looking baby and a baby who sleeps all night long is the real reason mothers fall in love with their kids right? Egh! Wrong (Although it helps, alot). I think it's like any other relationship, you've gone through the tough stuff together, we made it through the first 6 weeks of what felt like hell, I mean, aka learning to breastfeed, and we really got to know each other well at 12am, 2-4am, and 6am when he decided not to sleep, there I was, sitting on the edge of the bed rocking this little baby to sleep and just wanting to go back to sleep so I could get a few hours of sleep in, when he would open his eyes and start cooing, for what felt like forever.......after an hour or two so I'd have to call in back-up (Christian) to come relieve me before I lost all sanity...night after night this little tiny little boy would cry for me, and time after time, I would get up, feed, change him, cuddle him back to sleep. You would think that this wears a person out (it does) but for some reason it made me love him more and more, maybe it's all the time and energy you invest into your baby that helps grow the bonds of love, maybe it's all the oxytocin rushing through my body that tells me holding my baby and nursing him is pure bliss, or maybe it's just being human, we all need love, we all learn to love. All I know, is I love Leif and am grateful for such a sweet, tender, little boy. I am excited to watch him grow and experience life, and I am glad I get to be the one who guides him. (Dear God, please help me........).
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